SME counter suing JCS, Uncle Max’s tweets, JCS forming a new Jap unit – all of these came barrelling towards us in the last couple of days I don’t even know where to begin but it seems DBSK/THSK/TVXQ is coming closer to their end.
If the group is not already divided, Uncle Max’s tweets are an indication that our worst nightmare has just come true (Even though a part of me can’t believe that maknae would do such a thing D:). Not to mention the new unit –
The fans? I don’t even want to go there, considering my own emotional turmoil (?). I’m seriously having 2nd thoughts about supporting the three as a unit. Figures that SME/Avex talks probably didn’t go as they wanted to…but I can’t see them as an incomplete group. Only looking at JCS in their promotional photo for their Dome perf actually feels as if somebody stabbed me with a knife and then twisted it. Then reading Uncle Max’s tweets felt like rubbing salt on that same wound. I don’t even know what to believe in anymore because from what I can see is that DBSK seems impossible in the future (If DBSK does survive the present, you stronghold supporters can rub it in our faces. In fact I’ll be so happy they came through I couldn’t care).
I have more I want to get out of my chest, like why now? Why this? Why them?
I don’t know if it’s just me but all my other fandoms (light years ago and a whole different story) went down the same route. One or two members would just leave the band and it feels so so weird looking at them continue on with their careers like that that I didn’t even have the heart to continue supporting them. And then DBSK happened and they were the best thing that could have possibly happened and then this. Of course I’ve learned since that in this fickle industry no one can keep their promises of forever even if they repeated it like a mantra, even if they declared it to the fans countless times but that idealistic (immature, so sue me) part of me wants to know how far they could go, where they would go, watch them grow as individuals and as a group. I actually am rooting for them to achieve their forever, if not forever as a team, then forever as friends. But I guess even that seems like an impossible request at the moment (Maybe later when the dust have settled?).
Thank you, DBSK/THSK/TVXQ, however I may address you (lol) for being my happy pill these 4 years. Thank you, Lee seon saeng nim for creating and raising this awesome group and co-creators, SME for supporting them this long even though all of you are now trying to snuff out their light (D:<). Thank you Avex and Uncle Max (despite your moment there O.o) for being the biggest supporter, confidant, aide to the boys all these time they were in Japan. Thank you, Cassiopeia and Bigeast for everything you can possibly do for them since the beginning – giving these ‘stars’ the chance to glow brightly in the sky. Thank you, fellow SMTowners, sunbaes and especially BoA for first introducing them to the world and showing them the ropes to showbiz. Last but definitely not least, thank you Junsu, Yoochun, Jaejoong, Changmin and Yunho’s papa and mama for giving us such lovely sons (*bows in absolute respect*). Who else have I not thanked? Oh right antis, detractors, critics and the media at some point cause seriously, without you, the boys wouldn’t have worked their asses out just to prove all of you wrong, and to triumph as they do now (…erm, then. Never mind.)
So I guess it is goodbye for now? Until they return as five (yes, I still believe it’s possible dammit. Call me a ridiculous indecisive optimist but I only see 5. Even though I’m tired of all the drama that’s been happening )’:)
Adieu TVXQ fandom (?) Still keeping the faith.
