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Is this good bye?

SME counter suing JCS, Uncle Max’s tweets, JCS forming a new Jap unit – all of these came barrelling towards us in the last couple of days I don’t even know where to begin but it seems DBSK/THSK/TVXQ is coming closer to their end.

If the group is not already divided, Uncle Max’s tweets are an indication that our worst nightmare has just come true (Even though a part of me can’t believe that maknae would do such a thing D:). Not to mention the new unit –

The fans? I don’t even want to go there, considering my own emotional turmoil (?). I’m seriously having 2^nd thoughts about supporting the three as a unit. Figures that SME/Avex talks probably didn’t go as they wanted to…but I can’t see them as an incomplete group. Only looking at JCS in their promotional photo for their Dome perf actually feels as if somebody stabbed me with a knife and then twisted it. Then reading Uncle Max’s tweets felt like rubbing salt on that same wound. I don’t even know what to believe in anymore because from what I can see is that DBSK seems impossible in the future (If DBSK does survive the present, you stronghold supporters can rub it in our faces. In fact I’ll be so happy they came through I couldn’t care).

I have more I want to get out of my chest, like why now? Why this? Why them?

I don’t know if it’s just me but all my other fandoms (light years ago and a whole different story) went down the same route. One or two members would just leave the band and it feels so so weird looking at them continue on with their careers like that that I didn’t even have the heart to continue supporting them. And then DBSK happened and they were the best thing that could have possibly happened and then this. Of course I’ve learned since that in this fickle industry no one can keep their promises of forever even if they repeated it like a mantra, even if they declared it to the fans countless times but that idealistic (immature, so sue me) part of me wants to know how far they could go, where they would go, watch them grow as individuals and as a group. I actually am rooting for them to achieve their forever, if not forever as a team, then forever as friends. But I guess even that seems like an impossible request at the moment (Maybe later when the dust have settled?).

Thank you, DBSK/THSK/TVXQ, however I may address you (lol) for being my happy pill these 4 years. Thank you, Lee seon saeng nim for creating and raising this awesome group and co-creators, SME for supporting them this long even though all of you are now trying to snuff out their light (D:<). Thank you Avex and Uncle Max (despite your moment there O.o) for being the biggest supporter, confidant, aide to the boys all these time they were in Japan. Thank you, Cassiopeia and Bigeast for everything you can possibly do for them since the beginning – giving these ‘stars’ the chance to glow brightly in the sky. Thank you, fellow SMTowners, sunbaes and especially BoA for first introducing them to the world and showing them the ropes to showbiz. Last but definitely not least, thank you Junsu, Yoochun, Jaejoong, Changmin and Yunho’s papa and mama for giving us such lovely sons (*bows in absolute respect*). Who else have I not thanked? Oh right antis, detractors, critics and the media at some point cause seriously, without you, the boys wouldn’t have worked their asses out just to prove all of you wrong, and to triumph as they do now (…erm, then. Never mind.)

So I guess it is goodbye for now? Until they return as five (yes, I still believe it’s possible dammit. Call me a ridiculous indecisive optimist but I only see 5. Even though I’m tired of all the drama that’s been happening )’:)

Adieu TVXQ fandom (?) Still keeping the faith.

To Melbourne and back

So I quitted my job, finally graduated, went back to PG, went to OZ and came back – all in 1 month. Next stop, SG! So says the mother. Probably next weekend. We’ll see.

As for Tohoshinki, nobody’s putting down their mikes just yet. But fans are more divided than ever over JCS and their big project because where’s HM in all these big plans? The worst that can happen is when fans start blaming one side for performing together without the other side…And why am I talking about ‘sides’ now? There are no sides.

There is only 1, nevermind that ’1′ is on hiatus right now.

Still keeping the faith (?)

New start, fresh beginning

Finished university? Check

Got a job? (okay, not exactly certain yet but still ) Check

Learning Mandarin? Check

Set a goal for next year? (Japan here I come!!!) Check

Found the love of my life? . . . <— New Year’s revolutionOh-Em-GeeEngrishfail resolution (Keyword: Tall, Rich and Handsome . . . any candidates? XD)

2009 so far? – Other than the fact my favorite band is in shambles, and I was practically living in the basement,  I guess it ain’t so bad… Ok, I lie. Definitely one of my worst years but things are beginning to look better in time. I can only hope for that to happen because I’m kinda considering moving to an isolated island not located on the map . . .

Busy…

It’s been 2 weeks since I started work at FF. It’s been two days since my 23rd B’day; yes,  even spent it at FF walking the floor. Just got back from training and it’s been pretty exciting. Met some new peeps. And…I don’t even have time to explain everything in detail now but I’ll try to find time this weekend somehow…:P

I fear ><

So the ‘paraplegic macha’ (a nick no thanks to that one incident that night – ><) has pulled in the votes – and went against it! Sorry but I blamecredit Yunho as my inspiration. If he can prove his worth to papa Jung, why can’t I? Let’s just hope my first assignment tomorrow don’t make me eat my own words…*gulps*

On a whole different issue, results are coming out? I have as much confidence in myself as the size of the ants running around the house lately – not very good news, aye?

Decisions, decisions, decisions…

That I can’t even make on my own when it’s about me, myself and I (you self-absorbed bitch!LOL). I was just asking for opinions and the returning feedback has enough negativity I might as well live my life as a controlled puppet. Even more so, I was really eager to begin and actually made several calls to the company that would have been my current employer had I not been told of other less definite options (*digs hole and hides head*), and seem almost certain (99.9%) I would stay in the long term.

Truthfully, yes, I do treat this job as a stepping stone and for experience… for at least 1 year. But I was completely bought over by the work culture and organization structure I don’t mind looking at it in the long term. Sadly, that’s not what others have in mind. Oh well, we’ll see how things go.

 

THSK on Yomiuri TV Best Hits Music Festival 2009

Stand By You perf

With MCs

credit: lbl04 @ youtube

To be honest, I think they didn’t bother much with the techniques and just concentrated on singing their hearts out (fans cheering really helped fuel this). But 5 on stage . . . *sniffles* (~I’ve been waiting for so long~).

When dreams come true…

In a twisted prophetic way that’s beginning to scare me. To others these may not seem to link at all and maybe I’m looking too much into otherwise really really awesome fan-girl dreams but I have more than enough deja vu in my daily life to agree with you.

The silver lining in the dark clouds?

First of:

The lovely voices of a group of International Cassies remaking TVXQ’s popular ballad:

Miduhyo English Version
A message from fans to Dong Bang Shin Ki

credit: parkyoona @ youtube

5 God Of the East or 5GOE’s “WE BELIEVE” Project (part 1)

Lyrics by: Meimei and Yzze
Arranged by: Yoona
Singers: Neru, Eeeney, Yoona, Yzze, Meimei, Raemi

Also, I should have posted these good news when they came out but I got lazy ^^;;